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The Zooma Way

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Hey guys
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zoomaravewolf
I am soooooooo sorry that I have left you all without my presence! 


Feel kinda bad that I did such a thing.....

Anyways, I am back, learning some new things here and there, working hard to earn money and pay for shiz.


I am also working on a new suit, but you can't peek at it yet. I still have to dig bits and pieces out from boxes from when I moved....


that sucks....


Anyways, I'm sorry I missed all of your birthdays and didn't message you or anything. I hope I can make up for it sometime soon!


-Z

To be or not to Be
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zoomaravewolf

To exist, or not to exist: that is the question. Whether it is more applaudable in the mind to suffer the knifes and cutthroats of amazing fortune, or take shield against a sea of trouble and by denying, end them? Of death, of slumber. No more, and by slumber do say we end the heartache and natural surprises that flesh is prone to, and is a promise to be wanted most. To die, to sleep. To sleep, maybe to dream. Yes, there's the problem. For in the endless sleep what dreams would come when we have shuffled off this mortal life, must give us a break; there’s the respect that gives us so long a life. For who would endure the torture and tribulations of time, the oppressor’s wrong doings, the proud man’s endeavors, the pains of hated love, the law’s untimeliness, the  stupidity of the office and the kicks; that waiting honor the unworthy takes, when he himself might become silent with his honorable name and image. Who would the workhorses bare to grunt and sweat under a tiresome life but that the dread of an afterlife—the uncharted place of whose born, no person returns questions the will and makes us put up with the wrongs we have done than to run to those we know nothing of? Thus, our consciousness makes us all scared! And thus the existing hue of resolve is sickened over the pale skins of thought, and enterprises of pity and moment and with this regard turns the flow around and lose the figurative action.


Strawberry Avalance
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zoomaravewolf
I sit and stare at my empty hand where your fingers fit perfectly in mine and I miss you so much. I miss you holding me tightly in your arms. The silent ballet plays softly but still photos and noisy arcades, are you there? Will you dance around me like the fireflies that lit up the night when you asked me the question. The water was crystal and the trees were emerald. The sky mimicked the water and not a cloud seemed to be found. You wanted to try something that you said you wanted to wait for. I did not anticipate your next move, for I was not sure that's what God planned. I hoped for a long time that you would ask, but found that many times, that was not what you wanted, or just did not know. So many times I figured it would be better to just move on since you did not talk to me for that two year time. What I did not know was how much you were trying to find your place in relationships. I wanted to scream from the silence my heart presented. Who knew that the silence was so loud? That night you asked me to be yours, I felt my heart scream in joyous rambunctiousness because I was not expecting  you to tell me that. You played Owl City, one of my newer favorite artists, and I was in awe that you would play a song that said you loved being in my arms and with me. I wasn't all sure that was true until then. Remember when I playfully pounced on you? What did you feel? Did I hurt you, or make your heart stop from excitement and jubilee? Did you touch the sky when you flew so high, or did you count the airplanes as they passed, thinking that I was in one of them that night? When you saw something at work or on your way home, did you think of me? Did you see a stranger that had my face, or an attribute of me? Did you see the wonder of the world like I do everyday? Was I something worth the gamble? I hope that I can make you happy, and I hope that you always find attributes you love more and more with each meeting.

Writer's Block: Life imitating art
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zoomaravewolf
Which movie or book character are you most like, and why?

To be honest, I'm not really sure about that..... I've been told so many, and have been a mix of all really.... I don't know what to say about that....

Changing
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zoomaravewolf
I don't hate you as a person, I just hate that you are trying to change me from what I am known the best for. You want me to change what I am in order to make yourself feel more at peace about things. "You should think about changing what you listen to" because it's not all christian music like you would expect from me. I have a different taste than you in that aspect, and you know it as well as I. Nobody said you had to like my music, and I have an open mind when it comes to music. However, when you tell me what I should and shouldn't listen to? That's a WHOLE nother story. I don't tell you how to live your life, and I certainly hope that you aren't trying to tell me how to live mine. I'm of the age that I should be deciding that myself. I understand that while I am at your house, I have to obey rules, but telling me how i should be is not a rule at all... that's being willful that I will "conform" to something completely different. I do not conform and you of all people should know that. Dad and I agree that we like the beat of songs, and don't really pay attention to lyrics all that much. I would like for you to stop trying to change me. God says to love others for themselves, not to judge or try to change them. You are not following this rule and I'm sure that I will still get to heaven even though you think otherwise. Piece of advice? I'm not going to change for anybody and you should see that even though you have your blinders on. This is just what the devil wants of you... he wants you to feel bad about what I do so you try to change who I am and what I do. Sometimes I feel like you are screaming at me with a bullhorn trying to get me to do what you want me to do.... nobody likes a "bullhorn guy". Keep that in mind next time you try to have me change the way I am.

Story part two
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    He left my presence as I continued to stare out. He was my father's right hand man, and also my brother. Did I care that my father wanted me to be there every second? Sometimes, no, but there are times when I want to be alone, and times when I don't. After looking out for a moment more, I turned once more to the room I felt was my own. Even though the house was abandoned, and mostly my own fixer-upper, it was my home from home. Too many times, I had gone there within the last two moths, and many of those times, I had spent the night. It was my place, my way.

    Nobody knew about it but me and my brother. Even then, I asked that my brother not say anything to anybody about it, and often times he does well. Seth knows his boundaries, but also knows when things go too far and how to take action for it. My brother is smart when it comes to those things. I trusted him more than anybody else. Now, I decided to stay for a bit. It's more than I can bare to take before anything else goes.

    Another thought came to mind, what would my father think of my decision?

Quadsuit
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zoomaravewolf
Sooooooo, I was totally in awe that my friend wanted to go to comicon in Kansas City, which was very close to where he lived. So, I told him that I wanted to know what character I could go as, and since I love being a dress up kind, and I like being an animal (mostly wolf), it was best that I went as something as such. There were very few characters that would suit me, ha ha, suit me ;) and it was decided that a realistic wolf Link would be absolutely amazing!

Therefore, I am making said suit and will post progress as it happens...... hopefully..... anyways, thanks and have a great day/evening/night.... whichever applies.....

Writer's Block: See you on the other side
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zoomaravewolf
If you could find out what happens after you die, would you want to know?

Not really.... I know that I'm going to heaven, and my father has prepared for me a place at his mansion. There will be no more suffering, no more pain, and most of all, we will live forever.

Storms
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zoomaravewolf
What is it about lightning and fire that are so destructively beautiful? Lightning can electrocute you if you are not cautious and careful with it, and in such cases, will kill a person. Fire, however, can burn you alive if you do not take the proper precautions as well. Both instances can be cured if caught in time, but both are very damaging.

   But why is it that they are both so beautiful and mesmerizing to us? Is there something psychological about it or is it emotion rousing? One thing I have come to conclusion on, is that lightning can be scary beautiful and nobody can capture it in a single picture. Fire is always stunning. That can be captured in photos, but from afar. It creates ominous glows in the distance at night and usually indicates a farmer burning some crops that have died out to fertilize the ground for newer crops to be planted.


    Either way, both are beneficial to look at (except for if you are fearful of either phenomenon) and have an artistic way about them.... oh, and by the way, I am making a realistic Wolf Link quadsuit. I know I still have to work on the fursuit too, but I have issues with staying on one thing for too long..... I guess it's a quirk I have..... anyways! Laters!!!!!! <3

When you Kiss me Goodnight
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zoomaravewolf
I can't believe he carried me into the room, pulled back the covers of the bed, placed me on the bed gently, and then tucked me in as I recollect so little of most of this. It was something different that I would have never expected.

He tells me that I can't be with him because he doesn't believe in long distance relationships and I don't understand why he acts so boyfriend-like around me. What could this possibly mean? Does he want to be with me, or is he testing me?